It's officially the Holiday Season!! (Well, as far as I'm concerned!) Tomorrow we are officially starting to listen to Christmas music, and it's only a matter of time before the tree goes up!! Normally, I'm a firm believer that the tree doesn't go up until the day after Thanksgiving. Each holiday deserves it's own time. But since we're leaving before Thanksgiving for NC and I'm not coming back until the 1st, we want to maximize our Christmas spirit as much as possible. It seems to go by faster and faster every year.
I bought our plane tickets home for Christmas today. It was kind of a nerve wracking thing--committing to spending 7 whole days with my family. With my MOM. It totally sucks that I'm even nervous at all about the whole thing. I used to be so excited to go home for the holidays. I know my mom used to be excited to have me come home. Now I have no idea WHAT she feels. All I know is that I haven't heard her tell me she loved me and actually meant it in over 3 years. I tell her everytime I talk to her hoping that that'll be the time she says it back. It never happens. It will be hard to be around that, especially at Christmas. Especially because I know if she doesn't love me, then she certainly doesn't love Derrick, and he doesn't deserve that. I know he'd much rather be at his house for Christmas, will his family, who does love him. And me. I honestly have no idea what to expect while I'm "home". Fake it till you make it I guess!!
Blah blah blah.
I watched "Psycho" while making dinner tonite. Perfect Halloween movie!! And for the first time, I realized that Busta Rhymes sampled the theme from it in his song "Gimme Some More". My fave Busta song!! Learn something new every day, huh??
No trick-or-treaters again this year. So sad. I love to see all the kids in their costumes. Well, we actually did have one--our friends brought their baby daughter over with some cookies--which was totally cute. And yummy cookies too!
The laundry beckons. It never ceases. Hope everyone had a Happy Halloweenie!!
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