Poor penniless me....

So yesterday was my orientation meeting for nursing. I can't believe classes start on Monday!!! Ack!!! After everything they told us yesterday, I'm pretty much terrified. I'm scared I'm going to kill someone. I'm scared I'm going to suck at it. I'm scared I'm not going to know the answer when someone asks me "why are you doing that?" or "how do you know it will work?" The problem is, I did just a crappy job learning during my undergrad, that it's now all coming back to haunt me. I guess we'll see what happens. On the plus side, books are only $687. Wait...that's not a plus. Are there any good things happening here??????? I did look online and Amazon.com had all of them for $550. That's good! But alas, nary a one was in stock. Half.com had some, but wouldn't be here in time. And well, I already have massive amounts of reading to do before the first class. And a paper. Delightful!! My life is pretty much over as I know it. See you in May!! Oh, and I have to get this oh-so-stylish uniform to wear at clinicals. Good luck finding navy blue pants. Do you know not one store I have been to carries navy pants??? If you find some, let me know!!

Over Christmas Derrick threw out his back bending over. (What a stud) So after spine doctor visits and an MRI, we find out he's herniated his L5-S1. Fabulous. So now he has regular PT visits. United Health Care must looooove us!!

Listen to this dream I had: I was pregnant, and getting an ultrasound, and the doctor said it was a girl, and then all of a sudden another baby popped up onto the screen, and it was a girl, and then another one showed up, and that one was a boy!!! Well, I had them like 2 weeks later (geez, wouldn't that be nice!) and I had to run some errands so I took the boy with me. And I left the others at home!!! They were in the coldest room of our house (which I'm currently in, freezing) and they had peed through their clothes and were wet and cold and shivering and hungry and I was the worst mom ever. The whole time I was out looking for 3 high chairs and 3 changing tables and carrying this baby boy over my shoulder. Like a sack of potatoes. I can't be a mom!!! I'll suck!!!

Well, I really should go. I have a major shopping spree to do. In just a few hours time. Did I mention that I'm a nanny for 3 kids now? Now I don't feel completely worthless and a drain on our savings. It's for this lady Derrick works with. They are super cute kids, and behave pretty decently. I guess they have 4 other babysitters--which is sorta sad to me. But oh well. They seem well adjusted at least.

Ok--I'll be back with a grand total later!