Tuesday, August 17, 2010

It's been one week since you looked at me...

What a week! This little baby is so so sweet. We just love her to bits. It was weird...with Summer, I loved her because I knew I should but it did take me a little bit to really really love her. I must have learned how to love with her because with Hannah, I loved her instantly, and realized my love for Summer grew at the same time.

In fact, coming home from the hospital was really hard for me. Before we even left the hospital parking lot I was crying. And then when I saw Summer at home I cried even more. For awhile, I couldn't even look at Summer without breaking down into tears. When I left she was my little girl, my baby. And now she had somehow grown up and become the big sister. I felt guilty for some reason, like I had replaced her. I guess I wasn't ready for her to grow up yet, even though I knew this day was coming. Nobody ever told me I was going to feel like this! I was super emotional for like 2 days, and then I had a huge huge cry, and then I felt better!

Now I just love my girls. Summer is so sweet with Hannah, and always asks to see her and kiss her. We're still working on being soft and gentle, especially since Summer just loves to point out all of Hannah's body parts, especially her eyes.

POKE!


But so far Summer seems to like her and wants to share everything with her, including her milk. We walked in on this the other day:

Hannah has been a great baby so far. At her weight check yesterday she gained 11 oz since Thursday, taking her to a whopping 6 lb 8 oz. She sleeps like a champ, and obviously eats like one, too. During the night she wakes up and eats and then goes right back to sleep, just like her sister did. And for that, I am so grateful.


Here's hoping for another great week!






9 comments:

DeAnn said...

I remember crying after Megan was born. It seems so silly to explain it now but at the time it seemed perfectly rational! Beautiful girls!!!

vanessa said...

Isn't it crazy How huge your first becomes overnight? They sure grow up fast. Hannah looks so beautiful!

Ruth said...

What a cutie!!! She sure looks like Summer as a baby. I'm glad you all are doing well.

Miranda said...

They're so precious!

Lara said...

Okay she TOTALLY looks like you, Karen!!! And LOL on the milk! What cuties!

I remember these emotions very well. It happens with every baby! So completely normal. Trust me.

Melissa and Trevor said...

summer is just breaking her in. Eye pokes, milk...I am sure there will be more! enjoy!

Sarah said...

Karen you are such an amazing mom! I totally remember feeling the same way with both of my children as well. Having baby #2 really is a huge adjustment. Hannah and Summer are so beautiful and I just love seeing pics of them!

Melissa said...

I totally know how you felt. I have been there, too. I'm sorry noone warned you- you probably wouldn't have understood until you experienced it anyway, right? Your girls are beautiful. You are so, so lucky :)

Maria said...

Yes the kids grow up over night. I felt completely torn between my two and struggled with feeling like I didn't give either enough attention and love but it gets easier. I had date nights with Tanner where we played at the park just to two of us or other fun things and ate dinner while Skyler watched Davis. It helped me deal with my changing relationship with Tanner. Who knew you could love two little people so much? Especially when you thought you loved your first with all your heart. Amazing how our capacity for love grows.